FanFiction.Net : If only tears could bring you back Just In . C2 . Search . Directory . Dictionary Log In . Register Menu- FAQ/Help- TOS- Ad Blocker- Privacy Anime » Fushigi Yuugi » If only tears could bring you backB s : A A A Author: Sara Jaye PG - English - Angst/Drama - Reviews: 2 - Published: 07-29-02 - Updated: 07-29-02 id:881342 "If Only Tears Could Bring You Back" by Sara Jaye Wai! ^=^After wanting to write a HotohorixNuriko fic for awhile now, the inspiration finally hit me and I came up with this songfic! ^_^ Of course, it came to me just as my playlist skipped to the song. :P Anyways, I feel Nuriko got very screwed over in the series. I haven't seem very much of it (As in, almost none. ^^;;;; Please don't flame me! I know it's probably looked down on to write about a series when you've never even seen it. ^^;;;), but I've read info on websites and know enough to feel very sad for Nuriko. ;_; He's so very devoted to Hotohori-sama, and he never even has a chance! ;_; Not to mention that Hotohori never seems to notice him much...but I think that he DID care about him more than he let on. ^^ Which leads to this fic. ^_^;; But anyways, enough of my rambling (I say that every disclaimer...I am so unoriginal. X_x;;;). On with the fic! ^_^;; (Song lyrics are encased in {}.) [Disclaimers: Fushigi Yuugi is the property of Watase Yuu. None of the characters belong to me. The song "If only tears could bring you back" is property of Midnight Sons. This story is yaoi, and pretty depressing, so if that kind of thing bothers you, you may want to close this window. Otherwise, enjoy! ^_^] ~ {How will I start tomorrow without you here?} "I can't believe this. This is not happening. I...It can't be...it just can't." This had to be a dream. It was too crazy to be reality. He couldn't be dead. Not Nuriko. {Who's heart will guide me while the answers disappear?} Hotohori ran outside, to Nuriko's favorite place of sanctuary. The willow. Nuriko would be there as usual, he thought. He has to be. He just can't be dead! But he wasn't. There was no fighting it anymore. Nuriko was gone, and he was not coming back. {Is it to late, are you to far gone to stay? Best friends forever, should never have to go away} "This wasn't supposed to happen. Not now. Not ever, I wish, but that's unrealistic. But why now?! Why so soon?! Why, Nuriko?!" {What will I do? You know I'm only half without you How will I make it through?} "I know I never said anything, or let you know...but you're so important to me, Nuriko! You're my best friend...you were always there for me when I needed you...I could confide in you and know my secrets were safe...even when I was pining over Miaka, you didn't resent me... Nuriko..." His emotions finally overwhelming him, Hotohori collapsed to his knees under the willow, tears pouring down his cheeks. {If only tears could bring you back to me If only love could find a way} "If only I had tried to protect him...if only I'd been there, held him as he was dying..." {What I would do, what I would give if you Return to me, someday, some how, some way If my tears could bring you back to me} "I feel like this is all my fault. I was so busy chasing after Miaka, so preoccupied with my work...I kept insisting we were just friends yet most of the time I never even acted like THAT to you...I ignored you. How could I have been so cruel?" {I've cried you an ocean if you would sail on home again Wings of emotion will carry you and all they can Just like love guides you and your heart will chart the course Soon you'll be drifting to the arms of your true north} "If only you could hear me right now...please come back...you can't leave me this way. I...I can't stand to be without you, Nuriko." {Look in my eyes, you'll see a million tears have gone by And still they're not dry} "If you could just see how much you're hurting me, you bastard. How could you leave me that way?!" {If only tears could bring you back to me If only love could find a way What I would do, what I would give if you Return to me, someday, some how, some way If my tears could bring you back to me} "It's strange. I never realized how much you meant to me until you were gone...you were always there and I hardly gave you a second thought. Never realized your worship of me was more than what it seemed..." {I've held you close inside the words I've only whisper before} "I...I love you, Nuriko...I-I didn't even realize it until now, after all that time being so stuck on Miaka...you were the one I loved. How could I have been such an idiot? So blind to your feelings...and never even acknowledging my own? Now it's too late." {For one more chance, for one last dance inside of me That I would like and love} "If I had realized it sooner...if I had told you how much you mean to me...would you have stayed?" {If only tears could bring you back to me If only love could find a way What I would do, what I would give if you Return to me, someday, some how, some way} "I'd give anything to bring you back...just to see you again. To see your smile, to hear your voice...just to be with you...my love..." {If my tears could bring you back to me} "If you can hear me up there, Nuriko...I miss you. I can't tell you how sorry I am I ignored you," Hotohori whispered as he looked upwards at the sky, which was beginning to get dark. Spent from sobbing, the young emperor lay down under the willow, his eyelids beginning to feel heavy. "Ai shiteru Nuriko," he whispered before sleep finally overtook him. "I love you too, Hotohori-sama," a soft voice whispered. The outline of Nuriko's spirit slowly began to fade as he glanced at his love once more. Somewhat happy, yet sad. Hotohori did care for him after all. "I'll always be with you, Hotohori-sama," he whispered. "Forever." ~End~ Yes! Second story in a row I got finished! ^^ Maybe not in one night, but before I had a chance to leave it unfinished for ages. ^_^;; I hope I did an okay job considering I've never seen FY. ^^;;; Ja ne! Submit ReviewReport Possible AbuseAdd Story to FavoritesAdd Author to FavoritesAdd Author to Author AlertAdd Story to C2 Archive