"Love hurts" Zoisite's image monologue by Sara Jaye Heh, I wrote this on the spur of the moment MONTHS ago...like, sometime between late winter and mid-spring. I upgraded it from "sudden burst of creativity/inspiration" to "actual piece" sometime later, then gave it a title, now I'm adding the last step-a foreward. :P So, now it's officially a "fanfic", in a sense...at least I consider it enough of one to put it in my fanfic folder. ^_^;;; *Another spark of inspiration hits* I just decided that this can be a prologue to "I want to tell you...but I'm afraid to lose you". ^^;;; Or it can be considered that, anyways... Well, enough of my rambling, on with the monologue. ^_^;; [Disclaimers: Sailor Moon is the property of Naoko Takeuchi and Toei animation. None of the characters belong to me. This fanfic is angsty shounen ai, so if that kind of thing bothers you or isn't your speed, you may want to close the window. :P But if not, enjoy! ^^] ~ Love... How can such a small, simple word cause so much angst? I've heard so much about how wonderful being in love feels. That 'Nothing matters as long as you're with the one you love' feeling. I suppose it can... If the one you love has the same feelings for you. If not...it hurts. It just hurts. That 'Nothing matters as long as you're with the one you love' feeling is a mere myth...and the reality is 'You'll always be alone'. And I know I will. As the one I love could never feel the same way. So I am alone, with my thoughts...and myself... Zoisite... It shouldn't hurt so much, as I am used to being alone. I have been for years... So this shouldn't make any difference, that he doesn't love me. Yet it does. Yes, he does care about me. But only because we're friends. And that's all we'll ever be. I guess I should consider myself lucky we are... But how I wish we could be more than that! I wish he could love me as much as I love him! But he can't. No one could ever love me that much... I was meant to be alone... Knowing that hurts so much, I want to cry... With all my heart, I wish I could tell you what I'm feeling...I wish you would hold me in your strong arms...love me the way I love you... But alas...that can never be... As the air grows cold with the night, I look out at the black, starless sky once more before I draw the shades closed, then switch off the light. Curling up tightly on my bed, I close my eyes, which sting with unshed tears. I think for a moment that sleep may ease my pain, but I know it won't. For I will only dream about you. ~End~ And as a final spur-of-the-moment thing, I added those last 2 lines. ^_^; Ah, I finished 3 fanfics in 2 nights...feels pretty nice. ^^ Now...if I could just finish those other stories I've fallen behind on. X_x;; Ja ne!